New Delhi:
Journalist-turned-politician MJ Akbar, who stepped down as union minister in October over several sexual harassment allegations against him, got into a fresh trouble yet again on Friday.
Yes! Pallavi Gogoi, a US-based editor of a leading media house has accused Akbar of raping her in India 23 years ago, saying the "brilliant journalist" used his position as the editor-in-chief of a newspaper to prey on her.
Narrating the "most painful memories" of her life in an article in The Washington Post, Gogoi said, "What I am about to share are the most painful memories of my life. I have shelved them away for 23 years".
The journalist mentioned each and every detail about how Akbar physically and mentally harassed her for years while working at the Asian Age newspaper across India.
"It must have been late spring or summer of 1994, and I had gone into his office. His door was often closed. I went to show him the op-ed page I had created with what I thought were clever headlines. He applauded my effort and suddenly lunged to kiss me. I reeled. I emerged from the office, red-faced, confused, ashamed, destroyed," she alleged.
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The second incident was a few months later when she was summoned to Mumbai to help launch a magazine, she claimed.
"He called me to his room at the fancy Taj hotel, again to see the layouts. When he again came close to me to kiss me, I fought him and pushed him away. He scratched my face as I ran away, tears streaming down. That evening, I explained the scratches to a friend by telling her I had slipped and fallen at the hotel," she wrote in the Post.
"When I got back to Delhi, Akbar threatened to kick ME out of the job if I resisted him again. But I didn't quit the paper," she said.
"In his hotel room, even though I fought him, he was physically more powerful. He ripped off my clothes and raped me," she alleged, adding that instead of reporting him to the police, she was filled with shame.
"I didn't tell anyone about this then. Would anyone have believed me? I blamed myself," Gogoi said. Akbar used to burst into loud rages in the newsroom if he saw her talking to male colleagues. It was frightening, she went on to claim further.
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"I cannot explain today how and why he had such power over me, why I succumbed. Was it because I was afraid of losing my job? I just know that I hated myself then. And I died a little every day," she said.
Gogoi recalled covering the December 1994 elections. For her excellent work, Akbar said he would send her either to the US or the UK as a reward.
"I thought that finally, the abuse would stop because I would be far away from the Delhi office. Except the truth was that he was sending me away so I could have no defences and he could prey on me whenever he visited the city," she said.
Gogoi alleged that Akbar once worked himself into a rage in the London office after he saw her talking to a male colleague. He hit her and went on a rampage, throwing things from the desk at her a pair of scissors or whatever he could get his hands on. She ran away and hid in Hyde Park.
"I was in shreds? emotionally, physically, mentally," she said.
Akbar summoned her back to Mumbai after which she left the job and joined Dow Jones in New York.
"Today, I am a US citizen. I am a wife and mother. I found my love for journalism again. I picked up my life, piece by piece. My own hard work, perseverance and talent led me from Dow Jones to Business Week, USA Today the Associated Press and CNN. Today, I'm a leader at National Public Radio. I know that I do not have to succumb to assault to have a job and succeed.
"Over the years, I have not brought up Akbar in conversations. I've always felt that Akbar is above the law and justice doesn't apply to him. I felt he would never pay the price for what he had done to me," she said.
He has called these allegations "baseless and wild" and has filed a lawsuit against one of the journalists who have spoken out, she said.
"It doesn't surprise me. He feels he is entitled to make up his own version of 'truth' today, just like he felt entitled to our bodies then," Gogoi added.
However, Akbar's lawyer, Sandeep Kapur has denied all such allegations, saying that "my client states that these are false and expressly denied". Last month, Akbar was in news after multiple women came out with their accounts of alleged sexual harassment amid the raging #MeToo campaign in India.
(With inputs from PTI)
